Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem?

A poem written on a cold lonely night, by the pool of my apartment, gazing at the jet black sky…

Pristine

was the cool water

dangling my two feet are

underneath the ceiling of dark skies

with nothingness the view was

but a lonely star & a shy moon

hiding behind parades of milky clouds

hello, I am alone,

would you be my friend?

Serene

as I stare into the night

with no one in sight

I call for you, my friend,

to share my aching sorrows

to share my blatant emptiness

I know how you feel

and you know how I feel;

together, we stare at each other

like perfect strangers

in a brief moment of connection

why, do you mind

if I shed some pearly tears

so unlock my hidden fears

so to them, I may say goodbye?

Shining

with all your might

by your own self, tonight,

you burn with passion

your exuberance like a beacon

with no care in the world

you need not approval

you need not worry for what might be said

you dazzle & shine

until you shine no more;

I envy you

I can never do that

poisoned by vanity running up my veins

as if enchanted

as if bewitched

I worry and despair

to shut up my own self up;

I envy you

you need not please others

unabashedly you become you

and nothing but yourself

tell me, my friend,

would I be happier if I were you?

Hello

I greet the quiet circle of light

‘why, don’t be shy, Mr. Moon,’

I’m here with you

and you’re here for me;

seemingly

drowning you are

amidst a sea

of billowing clouds,

but never do you fail

to illuminate the rock I call home

how selfless of you

giving & keeping on giving

from the glowing red sun

yet you never are appreciated

for your kind generosity

providing a bit of lightlife

for my fellow ignorant humans

please forgive me

would you take a piece of my

heart, in humble return?

Vanish

you both do,

by marching clouds like soldiers

leaving me alone, once more

with no one to talk to

with no one to sing to;

I hang my head low

absorbing the peace & silence

in my haste, inside I cry,

‘Is nobody listening?’

‘Does nobody care?’

no matter how loud

on deaf fallen ears

they fall

Sighing

I stood up to leave

with a sad melancholy

I bid farewell to you

goodnight nobody.

26/7/2007

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1:57am

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