Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem?

No Man Is An Island?

Sometimes, it’s better to be introverted
and reclusive.

I spend a lot of my time being on
my own. Of the late, I prefer not to walk with my close friends (who are
son-of-a-bitches at the time being) or my classmates even more. Somehow, I like
having my own ‘quality time’.

And NO, I’m not preparing a
massacre akin to that of Virginia Tech or planning a pact to kill myself with a
good friend like those dumb Aussie teenage girls.

So what am I? A recluse? An introvert? An outcast?

Why must people label others
these days for being different? (

Oh wait; I’m kicking the fuss
myself. Pretend I didn’t say anything)

I’ve been called ‘unsociable’ by
some girls, since I don’t mingle around with girls that much. I’ve been called
a stuck-up by a friend before we became good friends just because I wasn’t much
of a talker like him, and my occasional flare for being ballsy enough to say
things in a crowd.

See why sometimes I prefer to be
alone instead of constantly being criticized for my many flaws? Sure, no man is
an island, but I just love the peace and serenity of having no one around, and
activating my 5 senses. Absorbing my environment is a good way to feel alive.

But on the downside, that way not
many people will know the real me. At times I fancy myself an extroverted
introvert – sometimes I like to mingle around from crowd to crowd, but at the
end of the day just settle being with my close group of friends. Or just by
myself.

One place where I really unleash
my friend-hungry alter ego is of course here – the cyber world. Add to my
passion for writing and narrative, it’s live haven for times when I need to
forget all the shit happening in my life and just let my creative juices flow.

So want to know the real me? Read
my Friendster profile & blog.

I know some people say nothing
beats face-to-face communication and hanging out with your best buds at a ‘mamak stall’; but this is my ‘mamak stall’.

Oh well. That’s just plain
introverted me. Welcome to my life.

Wednesday,

25/4/2007

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