Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem?

Final exam 5 months away - and I still can’t believe the holidays are even over!

I just spent my 4 weeks of semester holidays doing lotsa stuff, ranging from awesomely fun (sleeping like a baby for hours, eating lotsa food, watching movies till I puke, rollercoaster ride @ Genting Highlands, eating more food, ice skating @ Sunway Pyramid, wall climbing till I injured my ankle.. did I mention eating yet?) to meaningful (quality time with family, made new amazing and wacky friends) to beneficial (volunteer work @ MERCY warehouse, helped out my mom with house chores, learned to play the guitar) to extremely dull and boring (wasting my time lazing around, trying to do work but opt to do it tomorrow, which was postponed to the day after, and the week after that.. and now my work still has not been completed).

Everyone knows the saying "Time waits for no man". True enough, time has been passing me by so quickly, that I cannot believe that I’m almost 19 when years ago I longed to be 18 so I can watch 18SG movies (not 18SX! Oh, you perverted people :P); or that I’m dued to be interviewed for my medical school application this month when it seems only yesterday I decided to choose medicine as my life career; or that my final exam, which can make or break my opportunity to fly to UK to read medicine, which has always been my dream eversince I can remember, is only 5 months away, when it seems like only yesterday I was jumping in utter joy when I received the offer letter to do the IB (International Baccalaureate) diploma, which I’ve been eyeing since my days in boarding school. It all just happened so fast. I’m still barely digesting all this. And worst of all, I’m still ill-prepared for my final examination!

So should I panic? Hide under my bed and shiver in fear? Run away to some country I can’t even pronounce the name and start a new life as a beggar?

Or stop procrastinating and hit the books?

The latter seems like a better idea (though the former is awfully much easier to do). Quitting my procrastinating habit is like telling a teacher to stop teaching, or a smoker to stop smoking, or Michael Jackson to stop molesting underaged boys. Not that I care if he did molest underaged prepubescent boys.. but that’s not the point! It’s hard. Super, DUPER hard.

Am I giving reasons? Running away from the problem instead of solving it? Believe me, I’ve tried numerous ways (and ‘numerous’ is an understatement) to un-procrastinate myself.

Just hope I won’t screw up my last step. This is the last ‘obstacle’ I have to overcome before I can officially become a medical student studying in a prestigeous medical school. Lord help me please!

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