Whispers Behind You : A Poem
Whispers Behind You
Me
I am
fragile
Here I stand
singing a lullaby
soothing my nerves
consoling, my soul serves
to tame my anger, now ablaze
to repress all the disdain
before emotion gains pace
before it reigns over me
unleashing contempt
roaring inside
i’m hurt
i cry
Cheeks
becoming rosy
a surge of warmth
pumping up to my face
uncontrolable is my heart
beating, pounding heavy
soon, knuckles crack
a fist, it becomes
trembling, shaky
scornful, i am
alas, my teeth
hatefuly
i grit
whispers
secretly pass
without my knowledge
they carry lies, deceit
who would’ve thought, about me
oblivious, i was, to the despicable fact
the truth, finally surfacing about you
triggered infuriation, exasparation
backstabbing words behind my back
insensitive, tarnish me, you do
poisoning others all around you
into believing that it’s true
why easily they judge me?
not like they know me
but why so cowardly?
still, i question
why me?
trust
from me
it’s free
to these people
i care a great deal
whom i call ‘my friends’
‘my pals’, even ‘my buddies’
but naively, i made a mistake
letting me give more than you take
putting down my guard, to a person like you
i should’ve known, why you imbued
me with nothing that is true
false perceptions in mind
imagining you, a friend
so caring, so mild
now disillusioned
i wake up
i realize
once
you became
the apple of my eyes
an object of my desires
secretly i did, show what i hid
the feelings inside, but you cared less
of what i always needed to confess
cold, emotionless, selfish prick
i loath you now, what a dick
you deserve the profanity
the obscenity
that i feel
ironic
thanks to you
my mind becomes
a fountain stirred
the enchoes unheard
of the voices within,
the torment, excruciating,
screaming in nothing but pain
because of you, everything falters
foolishly, it’s all a blunder
but behind all this
a lesson, it lies
never so easily
open up inside
for everyone
i’ll try
