Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem?

truth hurts like fuck

i am so naively stupid. i am utterly stupid for hoping for something that i should’ve knew, will never be achieved. as i am awakened from my reverie by the harsh reality, i lay an ocean of soaring emotions. yes, truth hurts like fuck. (offended by the “F” word? sorry, but i just need to express myself for the time being. please discontinue reading if my foul words loaths you. thanks) 100% painful, a hard slap on the face, and a total dream shatter. yup, that’s truth. i was aiming for something beyond my reach, absolutely unrealistic, and all the way through, i had faith that i’d be able to get what i want. how wrong i was.

what is all this emotional crap about, you ask? well, let me ask you the million dolar question first : have you ever wanted something so much, even if you know that it’s bad for you, and you just can’t let go, and you’d give all you have to just be able to own that one dream, the dream that could’ve brought tons of joy and happiness, and satisfactory? have you?? of course y’all have, if not then you’re not human, not even a flamingo i reckon! now, after answering such an easy question, here comes the significant part : HAVE YOU EVER SEEN YOUR WHOLE HOPES AND DREAMS SHATTER RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES, JUST BY STARING AT A COMPUTER SCREEN, AND DISCOVERING THE FUCKING TRUTH?? have you? coz if you have, tell me how you could face such a heart breaking, hard blow and finally managed to move on? how? coz this is the 5th fucking time in my life where everything i ever wished for proved to be a mere fantasy, non realistic in the real world, a load of crap. yes, you know what i’m talking bout - love.

now call me a sick bastard, but i’m just going thru a phase in life where i am deceived by the devil, masked behind the name “LOVE” (or is it “infatuation” ? whateve u want to call it) and experience all sortsa agony and insurmountable amount of pain, which definitely hurts like fuck. fuck fuck fuck! now, i can go on yammering for hours and days and even MONTHS till my wounds heal and i can finally say “i’m over that already, my life’s back on track”, but for the time being, let me swear all i want in my own fucking blog. why are you reading anyway?? don’t you have other fucking sites to visit? i mean, here you are , reading slurs and words your mother would beat the living daylight out of you if she caught you uttering such foul language, and wasting your precious time hearing all my hurt that hurts like F.U.C.K (if u need me to spell it out loud). stop flushing your golden time down the gutter, please.

hope my journey back home today will stitch a sheath over my painful cut on my pride, heart, and soul. at least there’s a reason for joy (my sister gave birth to her 1st daughter @ my 1st niece last monday, nifsu syaaban! hope so..

lord, oh dear lord, truth hurts like fuck..

[aLiiiii the Hurt one]

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