As depressing as the truth can be..
As depressing as the truth can be..
Dear everyone who wasted time reading my previous blog entry,
Have you guys ever heard of "freedome of speech" ? And do you guys even know what freedome of speech means? If you don’t , lemme refresh your memory a bit - the freedome to express oneself through the usage of words, be it written or verbal, without harrassment and suppressing from other individuals. it’s a right. Now that i’ve defined it to you, think back - did you guys respected my right to channel my sorrow and hurt through my blog, or you guys are such pundits that y’all don’t even consider the mental condition of a hurt one like me? of course not, y’all don’t learn psychology, therefore would speak freely of "oh-i-understand-when-in-fact-i-don’t-but-still-i’m-so-right-you’re-100%-wrong-and-i’m-utterly-and-irrefutably-right" without caring less of how fucking bad i’m stuck in this turmoil.
now that i’ve been totally vulgar and insulting to you guys (not to mention risking my friendship), hear me out. i know y’all "care" (yeah right) cuz you’re all my friends, but really, how well do y’all know me? do you even know my feelings? understand my woes? who the heck i’m falling apart over? or when my mood changes or when i have flings? one monosyllabic answer - NO! how can one who doesn’t know another advice the person as if one knows that person well and is aware of his emotions and feelings? and look at what you guys’ve done to me, i’m turning into angsty, love-hating, irrational, irritable individual! well, thank you very much for provoking my long kept anger, cuz at least now that i’m lashing out on y’all, it won’t keep on expanding inside of me and then blow me up. THANK YOU VERY MUCH
sure life has its up and downs. sure i don’t deserve to get whatever i want. sure you guys "care". sure you guys "know me". sure i have no rights to voice out my inner most hurt feelings. sure i’m such a wreck and angry guy who’ve forgotten what it’s like to feel spiritually calm. sure this is my blog and you guys can simply leave "empathical" comments to "cheer me up" (which is SO lousily done). sure my emotions can be simply disregarded as if i have none. sure, just do whatever you feel like doing. but one thing’s for sure, YOU GUYS AREN’T HELPING. Leave the advising and consoling to my close friends please. sorry if i hurt ur pride, but that’s nothing compared to how your cold remarks have deteriorated my already wounded state. next time, consider other’s feelings before simply saying anything. don’t be so selfish and self-centered (ironically, thats what i’m doing, but hey, don’t say i didn’t warn ya for unleashing my alter ego) LET ME BE.
again, the truth hurts like fuck.
Lord, why hast thou forsaken me?
[aLiiii the disturbed one]
