Anyone Seen My Self-Esteem?

Holidays ending? So soon maaa…

Aiyooo its the end already?? (well, not really. Sunday is, to be annoyingly precise :-P) well, time passes when you’re having fun (oh really? /:) well, not entirely fun, the 2 weeks its been. Boring at times? You betcha. Pathetic? That too (oooh, so u want proof? Waking up till 3 am playing online bowling/chatting/surfing certain sites i shouldn’t be mentioning in public [:-D don't salah sangke maa], waking up at noon or later, then sit infront of the screen yet again, glued to the seat, spending money recklessly as if i’m a billionaire’s son which i ain’t [sure wish i were. but hey, then life wouldn't be fun , eh? :-D].. need more proof??)

Sent me sister to the airport (she ended her summer holiday, now has to go on with university life. 4th year medicine in Glasgow. You brainy/funny/lucky sister, you :-D). On the way, i remembered I forgot my most IMPORTANT tool in the whole wide world - my cheap (hehe being ungrateful here astaghfirullah..) Motorola c380 handphone! :-O here’s the pic ! so here i am in ampang (me mom’s house) handphone-less :-(( haha tomorrow can take lah. think of all the hot chicks messaging me , and get irked for not reply AS IF! I really should start living in "The REAL World" , don’tcha think STill, just before the whole world as if is closing on me, I met the one n only Fly Guy Must be my lucky day. Whats with me n seeing celebrities? Linda Jasmine, Cheryl Samad, Marion Raven.. So we talked, he’s a real nice guy. Love the way he talks! No matter he’s a DJ.. Talk bout this and that, then we decided our stark raving mad stomachs r demanding for food n triggering the "Hungry" button, so we said our goodbyes. What a nice guy!

Well, one of the highlites of the fortnight sabbath must be the Personal CAS @ Community service back at my beloved ex-MRSM, MRSM Jasin da bomb Gosh, do i miss the school n teachers n my juniors and the DS people and the lab staff n makcik sapu n the cafe lady and blablabla (/:-) bleh caye ke ni??) Urm, not ALL of them, just overdramatizing, for a zesty effect to the readers (do i even HAVE readers?? who would read my dull stories? hahaha there goes my self-esteem n’ah not literally). Helped the teachers out from arranging tables, marking objective papers (actually its fun!! haha i get to be a teacher for a day) to stapling A LOT of papers together (when i emphasize on "a lot" , i REALLY mean "a lot" ! Thank God i came with 6 others, or i’d die of never ending papers to staple! haha. Moral of the story? I know now the hardship teachers go in order for their students to get handouts. Then they simply throw the handouts n forget. The nerve. I now will never throw away a handout that’s been stapled unless I am permitted to do so (hah! as if! we’ll c about that :-P) and I’ll appreciate the teacher’s big sacrifice/hardwork! Arigato, sensei The consultation with the juniors were great. They actually came over, in bundles! (Anyone remember last year’s so called consultation?? You could count the number of people who actually cared to come sorri guys, but we kick major ass haha) So this year people do care about their future plans, as in post-SPM programmes they should enroll in. My juniors are really a bright lot! I expect them to boom on the top spot for this year’s SPM . Very big potential (Juniors, i keep on saying? Am i not born in the same year as these "juniors" ? Well, i got lucky, so they’ll have to put up with the "senior Ali" thing not that i mind) Good LucK guys! And the cherry of the cake event - the surau talk! We showed the slides from Palestin (the numerous slides the Year 2s showed back at Banting). Sure was a tearjerker for most. Hope we conveyed our message well, and they’ll succeed in whatever they do AND help our needy brothers there in Palestine. Amin.

Hah! Finally I updated my blog Guess I’ll stop now, really need to get some shut eye! So, boys n gals, have a nice day

Lord Forgive me,

aLiiiiiiii

-1:27am-27 August 2005-

12:10 am, 12 August 2005

A few months later..

Whew, have I left my blog for quite a while or what?? Blame it all on the LRC @ Library’s super-(not fast, but)SLOW internet connection! I can make keropok lekor, even sambal belacan faster than the time it takes to load the friendster webpage! muahaha (i love condemning the college!) well, life’s been itself again - unpredictable, occasionally boring, inevitably suprising at times, dissapointing sometimes, joyful certain times. all at the same time! guess it’s worth living afterall (can u believe i was a suicidal lil brat back then?? just to prove life isn’t all that bad. so guys, if life give u lemons, make lemonade!)

A lot of things’ve happened during this few months. Making friends with numerous cheerful & funny people, doing public service for the first time (and my 1st encounter with mentally challenged people. quite touching n exciting simultaneously :-D) , entering tournaments (Taekwondo! yeah, i kick ass! but rather i got kicked in the arse by a black belt during the tournament not literally, but i lost by 4 points. heck, i enjoyed my 1st experience of sparring anyway got labelled TONE DEAF by some seniors (undermining me, huh? i’ll show them!) and joined the music club clique (I love to sing! I swear I’ll improve, and if they dare doubt me again..) , and most recently - THICK , GREY HAZE invading me lungs! (oh my poor babies :-D) thank God i’m safe n sound infront of my streamyx-powered computer (thank Heavens!)

Can’t believe they initially didn’t let us go back! What, they want someone to get bronchitis or kiok first, then last-minutely urge everyone to leave the compound? Prevention is better than cure, when will humans learn.. Now i’m getting a headache (hah! now i can sue the college/MARA for the trecherous health hazard i’m suffering! overdramatizing is my thing, agreed? :-D) but seriously, my head’s throbbing..

My dream college turn out to be like my previous dream college (well, junior college to be annoyingly precise. MRSM in short!) from the size of the room, to the DS n the food (i’ll give credit to the food here lah. Javanese DS workers somehow managed to make the food more delicious than the Jasin DS staff :-P) to the old blocks. Oh, they have a so-called "Hot spot" where the internet’s fairly slow (what’s the deal with dis place and slow connection??). well, i expected too much i guess but i’ll cope with it! i survived 3 repeat tests for my driving license & MRSM Jasin wat.. only 1 year n 10 months to go! hahaha

well, i’m sleepy now! may tomorrow bring happiness & joy to my life, and those around me..

Lord Forgive me,

ahmad aLiiiiiii

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