Another Day Under the Weather..
24/5/2005, 1:37 AM
Another day, another freakin’ problem, another emotional distress. Quite routine 
I know this sounds shitty, but I’ve never felt more lonelier in my 17 years, 2 months, and 17 days of life (CRAP!!) I really start to question my credibility of making good, satisfying conversation with friends (correction : I’ve ALWAYS questioned my lack of good communication skills) Who cares if sound better on computer, I suck talking in real life!Notwithstanding my bad communication skills, I could actually give credit to my listening skills (always look on the greener side of the grass 
I’m such a good listener that people asks if I’d ever contribute anything during conversations! Hah! Great, now let the whole world know that 
What is wrong with me? I failed my 1st JPJ driving test (let the WHOLE world know! when will i ever learn to shuddup) EVENTHOUGH the instructor dozed off on the road! One petty, silly mistake causes him to be all "let’s fail this kid" and stuff. 13/20 (passing mark 16) He had the nerves to give me a full 5 minute lecture (he snored while I was driving for crying out loud!) This guy, who didn’t respond to any of my wishes ("Hope to acquire some of your wisdom" and "hello" being greated with stony silence- and why the heck did I smile and stayed SO FREAKIN nice??) , who slept all thru my driving on the road, had the guts to scold the smoothest rookie driver around? (ok so I may brag a bit, it’s called self-esteem boosting!! A thought bears in mind : "Is it worth being nice to people who don’t appreciate your kindness ? Is it wrong to be polite when the other’s all rude and shitty? Does a smile deserves to be carved on my face just to be forgotten and totally ignored by a big, grouchy snot??"
Ok, so I might be over reacting, whatever. I’m just a lil’ cranky cuz I need more people to talk to (I rephrase that, make it "chat with") to fill my deprived soul. (oh, the drama! It’s just weird that certain days I need extra, "invinsible" hands to reply to a bunch of online people chatting with me, and days like this I don’t even get a "Hi" or "How’s things lately?". This so pisses me off that I just annoyed a "friend" (what term to use for this bleached hair lost soul? A manic clubber? A piercing idiot?) who keeps nagging me to follow him go clubbing (we just finished school, for crying out loud! haven’t we learn anything from those boring long years??) in ol’ Seremban (heaven forbids if this town’s that advance! to have a bowling alley is already a miracle I need to get my butt outta this town A.S.A.P!) Dude, if you’re reading, you may curse me whatever you want (at least "under aged kiddoes" like me still uphold Easter moral values and religion teachings my parents/teachers preached to me!) but if you didn’t know, you’re not the only one with a bad temper (I inherited it from my mom. SERIOUSLY! when she latches out, she flips completely! :-P) Hate this fuckin’ day..
But wait! Do I hear the bells ringing?? Opportunity knocks on my door ! A chance of a life time being an entrepreneur doing multi-network marketing! Luxor Network Sdn. Bhd. is the billion-dollared company, and boy am I glad my friend opened my eyes to such an irresistable big money-making career! (any one of u guys interested? contact me 24/7 
I’m gonna give it my all, and hope in a few months, after sheer confidence and solid determination, and wholeheartedly effort, I’ll be generating an income I’d only dream of I can the the sun penetrating the cloudy skies again!!
As much as i hated the day, I gotta give it to the Almighty God, for blessing me with such opportunity and gave me barracades to overcome. I know that failure is only the beginning of success. Failure comes a step before victory Alhamdulillah, thank You , the Most Gracious and Most Merciful God of mine
God forgive me..
aLi Hafiz
-2:04 AM-
May 25th, 2005 at 12:33 pm
yo mat, aishah ni! apa stress stress ni
its just a driving test, its ok. some ppl are born quiet, like me! (seriously, im really shy). so its ok, we dont have to talk all the time, imbrace our being hehe.. n i took ages to learn to talk to mum but i did it! so its ok, dont try to hard n ul be finee 
May 25th, 2005 at 7:41 pm
thanks sis
biase ah, sometimes everyone wants to blow up. (i sound like i have PMS :-P) ok ok lesson learnt
May 27th, 2005 at 8:27 am
WOW! How pathetic are you?? Replying ur own post? crap ur sooo sad!!!
May 27th, 2005 at 8:59 am
Aishah is soooooo full of crap!
May 28th, 2005 at 7:57 am
Damn, I just cant stop mocking you! Its fun as hell! Just because you fail ur test, doesnt mean dat u hafta blame the instructor!God, he knows better than you! C’mon 13/20 is woeful! if d instructor is to blame u might got 15/20… dayumn! just admit ur fault!
And I quote “(at least “under aged kiddoes” like me still uphold Easter moral values and religion teachings my parents/teachers preached to me!)”……. and this coming from a guy that cannot stop MASTURBATE what? 3 times a day? 25 times a week??? I’m not joking here, he told me himself! when u masturbate, who dya think anyways? Elton John? your dad? ur grandad?
Masuklah kau Luxor tu.. mati kau kena tipu! Muahahahaha! dayumn! ur so gullible, sudah kena tipu!!
Yeah, may god forgive you for ur gay-ness and ur constant masturbating!!!
May 28th, 2005 at 2:21 pm
oii ezra suka hati ke ckp org full of crap.. i think his sister would know best?????
May 29th, 2005 at 3:15 am
Yeah, rite, “sister”… what r u like in love with him, and tryin to make him straight again? Ive gotta tell you, he’s full-on gay, and unless u grow a penis, you wont have him!
Btw, Ali, id u wanna make a “testi(s)” (did dat turn u on?) make sure u dun block/ delete me frm ur frens list. Ive got notification dat u sent me testmnl, but since ur no longer me fren, I dun even get d chance to read it…..
Muahahahahahahaha… dayumn, ur like the easiest target ever… And you ask why I revealed ur name, when u kept me anonymous here? Well, lets just put it diz way, you threw me one cheap shot, i gave you 5 good ones in return!
Oh, yeah, Aishah, since Ali is not putting up, so SHUT UP!!! Muahahahahahaha! Or do you want me to make you my next victim!!! I’m sooo good!
May 31st, 2005 at 3:56 am
“Lelaki sejati ialah lelaki yang sanggup menghulurkan madu tika diberikan racun”
I pity you. Allah knows there is kindness deep in your heart, but since u won’t share it with me, fine. U can make accusations and whatever, I’m here trying to make up for whatever the heck went wrong between us, but if u still want to go on with ur vulgarity, then May Allah open your heart.
“And the believers, men and women, ARE PROTECTING FRienDS one of another; they enjoin the right and forbid the wrong, and they establish worship and pay the poor-due, and they obey God and His messenger.”
Qur’an 9.71
La taqhaf wala takhzan, innallah ha ma ana
May 31st, 2005 at 4:04 am
Again, you just replied your post! You just prove me right! How pathetic are you!
Look, don’t be a hypocrite! Just cos I attacked you, barulah tetiba nak jadi alim! Yeah, right!
Huh… keep proving me right!
May 31st, 2005 at 4:09 am
“I’m here trying to make up for whatever the heck went wrong between us”
Are you high, man??? I was the one dat tried to be nice to you but you shot me down, worse than that, you gave me a cheap shot here! So DONT tell me you tried to make up things! Look, I’ve told you before, you dont want to be on my bad side!
And dont try to tell me I’m wrong here! what I post was everything you told me! You said you fantasize about men, and how you like to see their shaven dick, and how you masturbate all the time, its an addiction to you!
You yourself told me everything I know! So , dont say I’m lying!
May 31st, 2005 at 4:16 am
oh by the way
Gadafi did Luxor , and he made thousands, mind you. again, I pity you..
“Do not hate what you don’t know, because the greater part of knowledge consists of what you don’t know” - Ali bin Abu Talib
May 31st, 2005 at 5:01 am
d’uh, since there’s no “Post a Comment to a Comment” , how else do u expect for me to comment to ur vicious comments and ur assault on my sister? Did i ever verbally assault ur sister? Come on, grow up, when will this feud end? Both of us are being ridiculous! Oh, since when can’t a Muslim quote a passage from the Holy Quran and not be labelled “alim” ? Heck, since words are prayers, so i’ll just amen to that! I’m Muslim, and always will be, so let me quote whatever passage I want just to prove my point. If you still don’t want to settle this diplomaticly and likea adults, then , again, its up to you. Who am I to dictate how u should live your life. Keep on posting vulgar comments like a child. I’ll let Allah deal with that. Betray me and go on spreading things I know ARE NOT true.
May 31st, 2005 at 8:10 am
You yourself told me you fantasize about men, naked men and their shaven balls!
You yourself told me you cannot stop masturbating! Keep proving me right!
May 31st, 2005 at 8:12 am
Oh yeah, just as a reminder, you’re the one that started it all with a cheap shot at me!
May 31st, 2005 at 10:47 pm
u know what that testi i wrote to u sounded?
happy birthday
ok, if u want me to do an apology, fine. i was wrong to talk shit bout u, didn’t i say i was a bit under the weather? i was wrong to say u were all those stuff that i said. i was wrong to provoke you even more when you tried to make peace. i just snapped. its my nature. i’m sorry if i was provocative when i self-defensively said some things i’m not proud of when you keep on teasing me that i was “a kid” and so. and this is my open apology.
oh, by the way, to set the record straight(funny how this word’s in this conversation) i NEVER told you i was gay, a homo, whatever. i never told you what i REALLY am. and now i don’t think i’d be willing to tell you anything. i could’ve told all those things u told me bout “her” and how pathetic it sounds, but i won’t, because its not what my ancestors would be proud of.
in a nutshell? i’m sorry. and happy 18th birthday. i’m going 2 melaka this evening, be it i get in a car accident somehow and pass away, hope u forgive me.
aLi
June 1st, 2005 at 11:15 am
It seems to me that your life evolves around me and this lil’ feud we have! Geez, I only do all diz crap when I’m bored…
Sorry to disappoint you, but I have other problems other than diz lil spat we’re having!
So, if u wanna apologize or watever, i told u b4 dat i wanna have peace, just do watever u want
Have a great life… n i’m hoping someone will just shoot me, and not cos of diz feud, but cos of d gal u mentioned!
Btw, i stayed firm wif I didnt lie, I just exaggerated the truth
Ciao